A jumble of thoughts

Well, it's officially October! The month our daughter will be born! I can't believe it, honestly. These last several months have gone by so incredibly fast. My husband and I become more and more anxious as each day comes. Today I am 38 weeks and 5 days pregnant. At our last appointment, I had not dilated but there was a slight change in my cervix. We're praying for even more progress this Friday!

Aside from (im)patiently waiting on our daughter's arrival, I keep my days busy with cleaning the apartment, doing laundry, decorating her room, and constantly obsessing about needing more things for her arrival. Realistically we are totally set. We have just about everything they say you need to bring a newborn home. There's just this part of me that feels like I need multiples of things and extras of this or that... But I have to remind myself that we are fine and we are very much prepared.

I find myself becoming more anxious about the near future. Our family lives 4 hours away. So, there will obviously be quite a bit of traveling in the first several months of her life. Our family, I know, will also come here to visit us as often as they can. I just want everything to go smoothly. I don't want holidays to be too overwhelming and to turn into a "tug-of-war" between families. I'm sure it won't be that way, but I'm a worrier. I just keep praying that God gives me peace of mind. I pray that He helps me to realize that I can't control everything and that I just need to relax. I just keep saying to myself, "We'll make it work... we'll make it work." And we will! I'm trying to see past the negativity that periodically seeps into my thoughts and just realize that this is the way our life is, right now. We may not live down the street from family and friends, but AT LEAST we are within a fairly short driving distance. That is what we should be thankful for. It could be worse...

On a lighter, less rambling note: Craig and I have been taking these wonderful walks each night. There's this park by our house and we just walk hand in hand and talk about our daughter and how soon our life will be so different. We're also trying to get a jump start on labor! So far, no luck. But I'll cherish these walks forever. We can't wait to take our baby girl there (in our awesome jogging stroller we got from my in-laws) once she's old enough.

 

Taken on our 5 year (dating) anniversary. I can't wait to see who our little girl looks like ♥